FEAR!

Fear fools us all.
No one of us completely eludes it and the weird thing is, the more we run from it, the more it comes to challenge us.
The moment we believe we have it under control, it stings us like a painful reminder to stay awake.
It feeds off all the anger we give it, and thrives on the paranoia lurking deep within.
We try to hide our fears only to realize how obviously we wear it, during all those ugly moments.
The power we give it stuns us and the control we so desperately want, slips away.

We always give excuses for fear. We are afraid to admit it controls us. What a paradox.

We cannot understand why it always gets the best of us. We are blinded by fear.

We need to be aware that we do not have to live in fear.
That we, as sentient beings, can be awakened to a happier, higher pattern of living.
But we must first break bad habits and self-sabotaging behavior, as well as develop awareness and compassion.
Trust our instincts.
"Worship the alter of our own intuition"
- quote from the book "The Gospel according to Coco Chanel".

What an awesome message.

So, as I write here... almost to myself.
As these lessons I talk about are my thoughts in words, in relation to an event in the day.
I would lie if I said my day was peaceful and meditative and joyous.
Today, I saw fear. I watched it rip away at two beings while they nurtured it with their pride.
A mirror and it's reflection.

Thus, my message to myself is...
Don't live with Fear, and Fear will not live with you.

I wonder

Ever been in a situation where something consumes your mind.
One single being...in this giant universe has control over ever inch of your working brain.
No matter how you try to distract or redirect your thoughts, it comes back full circle.
It's as if the only thing you want to do is act on those impulses and demand some sort of immediate response. An answer to all those lurking questions.
Or sometimes simply to quit the superficiality. To get down to the core, then the basics.
If the energies are so in sync, then what is there to lose?
If it was meant to be, then how can it possibly fail?
Is it pride? Is it the lack of trust or the inability to be totally vulnerable? The fear of losing.
Why are we always allowing fear to stunt us? Keep us rooted in our insecurities?
Is it really that difficult to give in, give up and surrender?
Put it all out there? Give unconditionally?
Is it that weak to admit that ultimately, none of us can do it on our own?